Wrapping up a chapter of my life.

I lived in South Korea for six years, going back and forth to my country during holidays and traveling around Asia. I left Panama because I was not happy there. I want adventure, a new life, exploring, finding myself, and challenging myself in an Asian country in an environment with a different culture and language that I was used to.

The experience was rewarding. I came to South Korea, I learned the language (at least the basics to navigate around). I got my master's, learned Korean and Chinese law, became a published author, met extraordinary people, and discovered that I was not remarkable as I allowed some people and myself to believe. But, I also found that being ordinary is ok. I learned that I am not afraid of the unknown and that my ignorance took me to unique places and challenges. Now, I am back to my life in Panama, and I started to write this full of fears and thoughts that my life in Panama would not be as fun as my life in Korea. But, the most I wrote, the most I realized that I gave myself a chance to embrace the unknown when I decided to move to South Korea. Now I have to allow myself to embrace the known and look at the things that I already know, the places, and the people I know with a different perspective. That known places and people will never be the same because my view of life changed. So, all the places I am familiar with and the people I already knew probably had changed under my new sight of life. Also, I had been egotistic, thinking that they have not to change; we all change a little bit every day, even though we do not notice. We change. We become different people every day. Perhaps, something we hear, something we see, changes our mind.

Wrapping up a chapter of our lives is always tough because it means leaving a part of ourselves behind, a part that we are attached to, that we are familiar with, a part of us that we might like or hate, but it is a part of us.

I guess that being scared and fearful about new chapters means that we are heading toward something, it means that we are moving forward, and I want to move forward, even though I am resistant.